Truth, Grace, & Sexual Sin

Wow.

I'm completely overwhelmed by the amount of readers that touched my last post on gender.  I'm humbled by your honesty, and quite frankly, grateful that you all didn't leave me hanging on such a hard topic to touch with written words.  A new season is nearing, and I am pressing on to finish the work of this season.....  Work I'd still rather do face to face instead of screen to screen. 

We are all equal at the foot of the cross.  This is the place I write you from again today.  Seeing my own sin, my own struggles, and trusting that in my own weakness, He is strong.

Our sin affects our world.

It destroys.
It separates.
It is self seeking.
It has consequences.
It hurts those around us.
It is terrible for our soul.

Most of us have struggled with being angry at some point in our lives.

Be it full blown rage or just mild irritation, we've succumb to the temptation that when we are upset by something we should take our anger out on another, or at the very least we've wallpapered our minds in angry thoughts and schemes.  Truth is, often times as we give way to sin in that moment, we feel good.  It is a release.  Whatever was out of our control in our life we, if only for a brief moment, felt a little more in control.  But it is fleeting, temporary.  Only God is in control, we are not. 

Truth is anger doesn't make us any more in control of our own little worlds. 

It is an illusion.  It is sin.  It destroys, separates, is self seeking, has consequences, hurts those around us, and is terrible for our soul.  It is sin.  And the world is a worse place because of it.  Not because I said so, but because God said so.  Anger, hate, bullying... they are all a perversion of the passion God designed in us to use to worship Him.

We all can agree on that.  It's wrong.  It's sin.
A world without anger, hate, and bullying would be better.

But often we struggle to see other sins the same way.

Like casual sex.
Like pornography.
Like homosexuality.


Most of the world is struggling with a sexual sin of some kind today. 

Casual sex, pornography, homosexuality, and lusts of all kinds no longer need to be sought out, they are a huge part of today's world.  Be it a full blown lifestyle or just passing thoughts, we've bit into the temptation and engaged in sexual sin with another, or at the very least wallpapered our minds with it.  And, just like anger, when we give way to lustful sin in the moment, we feel good.  It is a release.  Whatever void for love and acceptance we had, if only for a brief moment, felt a little fuller.  But it is fleeting, temporary.  Only God can fully fill that love void, another person cannot. 

Truth is that twisted sexuality doesn't make us any more loved or more accepted. 

It is an illusion.  It is sin.  It destroys, separates, is self seeking, has consequences, hurts those around us, and is terrible for our soul.  Sin....  and just like anger, the world is a worse place because of it.  Not because I said so, but because God said so.  Homosexuality, pornography, casual sex, lust are all a perversion of the beautiful sexuality God designed in us.

Just like anger, hate, bullying.....yet,
Yet, unlike anger we cannot all agree on one thing:
That a world without homosexuality, lust, casual sex, and pornography could actually be better.

Maybe this is you. 
Chances are good it is many of us. 
We live in a broken world.


We all know that homosexuality is a sin.
We all know that pornography is a sin.
We all know that casual sex is a sin.
We all know that _______ is a sin.

But not very many of us know what to do with that.


 
Beautiful one desiring to follow Jesus and struggling with sexual sin.....
I ask you to think hard on this.... The God of the universe has written His word not just to us, but for us.  For our good, and for His glory.  Could it be possible that the very God who created you might actually know what is best for you?  Could it be possible that He took the time to leave us with far more than just a list of do's and don'ts... that he left us with practical timeless directions on how to navigate this broken world best, as full and whole as possible?  Could it be possible God knows the why and why not's that we were never meant to understand..... that Almighty God might actually know exactly what lies ahead on those paths of sexual sin and how they will destroy us, and out of perfect love He's trying to protect us when He tells us about sin?

Young ones navigating this sexually broken world....
You are not gay because of something that has happened to you.  You are not a pervert if pornography has it's grasp on you.  You are not stuck in a lifetime of casual sex because of your past, including yesterday.  You are not gay if something you have seen on a screen caused a response that you did not expect.  You ARE a young one navigating a sexually broken world who may need help, healing, or accountability.  Do NOT let that define you.  I'm here if you need to talk.

Parents with struggling children, and children with struggling parents.......
When you talk about this, above all else, try to remember that more than likely no one on this earth wants what is best for you more that these people, even when they have a hard time showing it.  Err on the side of grace, but never ever abandon the truth.  You have my prayers today.

Church, dear church......
Could we be the place and the people who could possibly say.... It's okay that you struggle, really it is.  I, myself, after all I am not choosing a lifestyle of anger, but one of grace and mercy.  Yet, when the temptation to become angry becomes a reality, you are who I turn to for prayer, accountability, and hope.  Might we do the same when the temptation of pornography, homosexuality, casual sex, becomes real in the life of one of us desiring to follow Jesus too?  Are you ever temped in the things you put off to follow Jesus?  I know I am.  How would sexual sin be any different?


Above all else, there is one thing I am confident of......  His ABSOLUTE truth is never far from His ABSOLUTE grace.  He never intended one to leave the other.  We need truth.  We need grace.  Only in Jesus do we find both.

Daring to push past "I'm sorry" when you've really blown it with your kids.....

Alright, I promised here that we'd talk about the parenting side of it....... yup, spoken lies.  Those things people have said about you that somehow work their way into the fabric of your identity, even though they are completely false.  So, today, let's think specifically on wounding words from a parenting perspective..... this is huge and sneaks into almost every family when things are tense.

What do you tend to do when life seems overwhelming or difficult?  What kind of thoughts run through your mind?  How do you react when your child is angry or defiant?  Do you tend to get angry and yell, or do you freeze and say nothing and brood in your mind, or become frightened and give in, or escape and ignore?  Specifically, what kinds of words come naturally to your tongue? 

You will never amount to anything!
You always make such a mess of things!
You're such a moron!
Knock it off.... stop it!
You should know better than that!
Man, you can't do anything right!
Leave me alone-you always give me such a headache.
Your absolutely worthless.
That's it- I don't want to talk about it again!
You never learn, do you?
You can't wear that!
If I want anything done right around here, I have to do it myself.
That'll never work!
You know what I think, so don't even ask!
There, you've done it again!
Stop it!  I have a splitting headache.
I knew I shouldn't have trusted you!
You never listen!

So many parental reactions begin with lines like these.
And typically, they are only the beginning of many hurtful words said in anger.
Which one made you twinge with guilt or feel uneasy as you read it?
Which one might your kids say is your go-to reaction line?
Reread the list and figure it out..... listen for them.
Identifying it may just may help you hit the pause button the next time things become tense.

Either way, more than likely we waver on one extreme or the other when parenting gets tough.  And more than likely, the majority of our natural reactions were shaped long before our parenting journey ever began.  In fact, I recently read that our daily working adult vocabularies are almost completely formed by age two. 

Wow.  Age two.
Seems hopeless then right?

Not really......

Every single one of us has an earthly lineage. 

At one point, we were all dependent upon someone to show us how to do life.  Even if they didn't recognize or step up to the responsibility, we still were learning.  We learned how to eat, speak, act, and react.  Earthly lineages all have one thing in common:  Regardless of how perfect someone else's seems, they are all laced with sin. 

Every.  single.  one.  of.  us.

None of us came from a perfect home.
None of us live in one today.
We are all equal sinners at the foot of the cross.

We all feel it.
We have our moments.
Our reactions are sinful.
Some of us spew.
Some of us brood.
Some of us ignore.
But we all are guilty.

And, we all need encouragement in HUGE doses.  Especially when we screw up, or are trying to learn something new. 

But somehow, it seems this is often the time the enemy of my soul sends these phrases on a journey from the back of my memory to the tip of my tongue at lighting fast speed.  These often are the moments in which I'm trying to do life on my own strength, and just wanting things to go my way.  And they seldom do.  I know this.  Yet the tone of my voice, spewed reactive words, and an unforgiving and unapproachable disposition show in these moments I'm still desperately reaching for the one thing that is unreachable.......... control.

Control.
And it's out of reach every single time.
Because it was never intended to be within my grasp.
Yet, I reach for it.
You reach for it.

We throw those silent expectations of ourselves as parents right out the window.... to protect them from anything that would hurt them, to give them what was best, maybe perhaps the life that we never had, we vowed we would never  do this or that, we promised to always be there for them, that they could tell us anything, that we would never hurt them.

Yet somehow in one moment....
Over something that doesn't even matter at all.......
The little sinner in them ignites the big sinner in us......
And we feel anger toward the very little things that we hold so dear......
And out of nowhere that same cozy intentional protective parent
Blows, or broods, or stews, or ignores and becomes:
A lie planter....
A spirit breaker....
A dream crusher.....
....and when they cool off, we all know it.


Didn't know we were signing up for this, did we?
Broken our childish naïve "I will never do that..." vows.
Parenting is incredibly hard.

So before we fall into mommy guilt overload, let's just really be honest and ask ourselves.... how's it really working?  What's a parent to do?

I mean, sure I can get my way.
Sin and all.
But at the end of the day, it's still evil.
And evil always brings destruction and death.
Eventually.

So what do you do in moments like these? 
Do you wear the "parent badge" and justify your sin? 
Do you pray and ask forgiveness? 
Do you apologize, and then just repeat again later?

I'm no expert.  But look around.  Our world is busy.  Rushed.  Hurried.  Stressed Out. 

Angry parents are no longer the abnormal, it is now abnormal to see a parent not stressed out.  In fact if they are not stressed out, they are likely checked out.  Parents are reactive today, not proactive....   And the more reactive we are, the more lies the enemy taunts us to feed our children..... which means our kids are feasting on them.  One by one, parental insults and wounds that slowly mound up to insecurities that will affect their daily adult lives.  Sure, some of them seem harmless to say.... but think about how harmless they feel.

And so many of us are spoon feeding our kids tiny little lies daily.

So how do we replace these lies with truth?

You know I am no licensed expert.
I have no fancy degrees on the wall.
In fact quite the opposite.

However, in Christ....
I can share with you how I follow Jesus in moments like these.
I can share with you how I bring the gospel, the good news, to my kids after I've blown it.
I can share with you that our kids need it just as much as we do.
I can share with you how I tap into my spiritual lineage to overcome the sin patterns of my earthly lineage.
I can share with you that it is working to redeem the lies I've feed my own kids as a parent.

Redemption is beautiful.

Okay, story time:

A couple years ago as I was pondering what my role as a parent looked like to "spiritually train" my children, when God placed something very simple on my heart.  You bring the good news to them.... over and over and over.  At first, I thought that this was as simple as making sure they understood what Jesus did for them..... after all, that is the good news--the gospel.  Then I went and made it all difficult and unrealistic thoughts of family devotions (You know-- the thing that young dad is "suppose" to know how to structure and lead even though young mom has every detailed idea of what it's "suppose" to look like.... and yes-your young family is "supposedly" failing miserably it even though no one has actually said it..... yup, those) and anyway... insecurity hit big time.  The more I thought about it, the more intimidated I got.

Been there?
There's hope.

Sometime later on, after I'd spoken harshly to one of the kids, I found myself on my knees before God asking first for His forgiveness, and taking some time to cool down before going to apologize.  That was my messy routine:  Blow up-- cool down-- pray up-- apologize-- repeat.... (Can anyone relate?)  I prayed a simple prayer that I'd prayed many times, but this time it changed my parenting forever.  Lord, help me to go make this right.  His answer caught my attention.... YOU can't.

YOU can't....

     What do you mean I can't?

YOU can't, but I can.

     I know you can, Lord. 

God wasn't saying I shouldn't apologize.
He wasn't saying what I had done was unforgivable.
He wasn't saying I should throw in the towel and give up.
He wasn't saying reconciliation was hopeless.
That's not the character of God.

I humbled myself, yet again, and went and found the child I had crushed and began to apologize...
It started as my typical parenting apology.....

I'm sorry I became angry and spoke harshly to you. 

      It's ok.... (face disagreeing.)

I know how I spoke to you was wrong, mommies make mistakes too.

      I know..... (shared comfort in knowing we both blew it.)

I've asked Jesus to forgive me, can you forgive me too? 

      Yes.  (Softening a little....)

So, what can we do different so this doesn't happen again next time?

       Well, I can try to.....  

That's when it began to hit me deeper..... YOU can't.  My child extended forgiveness and began to rewalk the situation, but my mind began to race.  That feeling when you know change is upon you... but you can't define exactly how just yet.  God at work.  It began to hit me that on our own strength we can do nothing to guarantee that sin won't affect us "next time."  Sure, it's important to rewalk situations with children to help them learn what they can change in their choices.... but God was showing me what I was missing. 

I was relying on my own words.
I had been operating on my own strength.
I was hoping I could choose better next time.
I was tapping into the blood of Christ for forgiveness.....
BUT, I had never tapped into the truth to breathe life into the wounding words I'd spoke.

You bring the good news to them.... over and over and over.

YOU can't.... but I can.

       I know you can, Lord.

       Show me how. 

In Christ, we have no reason to fear the hard times..... in parenting, in marriage, or in life.  I realize that it is in the hard times that more faith is required, and more teachable moments appear.  We teach our children far more about what really matters in life during difficult days than during the compliant days.  Because in these days they see our dependency on God, they see our strength is not enough, they see we can't do it on our own..... and they realize their own need for The Lord.

This is what I was missing in the aftermath of my "mama has really blown it" moments.....

Truth.
The gospel.
The good news.
Life giving words.

I didn't get it then, but I am beginning to get it now. 
You see, this is more than a story about the God-man dying on a cross to pay for sin. 
It's a story that includes you and me..... and all of our kids.
A promise that from the beginning of time there has been plan and a purpose for our lives.
It is the ultimate triumph over evil with perfect good.
A guarantee that all that the enemy wanted to use for bad, God can use for good.
I know no other man that can promise and deliver such things.

Life giving words.
The good news.
The gospel.
Truth.

When we become a new creation in Christ, we also acquire a spiritual lineage.

So in Christ, we have a spiritual lineage as well as an earthly lineage.  Which means..... I can choose to walk in my earthly lineage full of reactions and sin.  Or...... I can tap into my spiritual lineage in Christ and breathe life into the destruction.

So what does this look like for us?

After I get upset and say things I really don't mean that are hurtful....

I don't stop at I'm sorry.
I don't stop after rewalking.
I don't stop after asking forgiveness.
It's not over when I've cooled down.
It's not over when I've prayed....

It's not over until I bring the good news to them.

I share the incredible story that before time even began, that there was a plan for their little life....
And it is written by the God that created the whole world....
The giver of every heartbeat, and controller of all the heavens and waters.....
And there is a purpose here that only they can fulfill......
Their own special part of a divine plan to help grow His kingdom...
A kingdom where we cannot cause one another hurt or pain....
Like the pain I just caused you.
Which is why God sent His Son, Jesus for us....
Because no matter how hard we try....
We blow it.
We make mistakes.
We say things that hurt others.
Even some times to those who matter most to us.
And God knows, and understands, and willingly forgives us if we ask.
Isn't that good news?
I've asked Him to forgive me, can you?
You want to know more great news?
And then I tell them a few of my favorites off of here...... such as:
You are wonderfully made in the very image of God.....
His plans for you have a hope and future....
I'm sorry I said something that would make you doubt any of that.
Your an incredible kid, and God trusted me with the incredible task of raising you...
And I'm going to mess up a million times....
But you know what else?????
Then I'm gonna bring you good news.... a million and one.


My words may heal... or wound.
My prayer may be powerful.... or ineffective.
My choices may help.... or hurt.
But Jesus Christ always bring healing, help, power, and life.


So the real question is: 

What do we have to loose by bringing the good news to our kids when we've blown it as a parent?  

Nothing.  It is all gain.  Yet, we often try to bring them the good news at the "good" times in an idealistic "family devotion" kind of way.  Yet, Jesus brought the good news to the hurting, and met them right where they were at in the middle of their pain and suffering. 

Following Jesus isn't conditional.
He wants us in the trenches for Him.
Even (and especially) the ones we've dug ourselves. 
Dare to push past and earthly I'm sorry.
And reach for the one thing that is always reachable....
Good news.

You bring the good news to them.... over and over and over.

YOU can't.... but I can.

       I know you can, Lord.

       Show me how. 

I believe I have taught more about Christ to my children in the moments that go terribly wrong, than the moments that seem smooth.  Every time I blow it I have an opportunity to bring the gospel to them.  When their little lives seem so hard, and when my words have wounded them to doubt who they really are.... He gives me the incredible privilege of bringing them good news and breathing life back into their broken little spirits..... by bringing the good news to them. 

And it's working.
It holds my marriage together.
It holds my little family together.
It points them to the One who can fix what I can't.
It is showing my kids following Christ is far more than being obedient.
It assures us all of who we are in His eyes, so we treat one another better.
It is the ultimate reminder that control cannot be grasped by anyone but God.
It stops the eye rolling of children seeing right through otherwise false parental promises.

And best of all, it kicks unrealistic mommy guilt right back into the pit where it belongs.

Silent Signs full of Spoken Lies

You know the videos. 

Those silent ones where people bring a powerful message or story to life by flipping several cards or signs for their audience to read.  Hearts exposed.  Pain revealed.  Many times sharing the hurtful things that people have said or done.  Other times sharing their own thoughts or secrets that have never broken past their own skin.  Some of them inspiring and hopeful, others desperate cries to escape the entrapment within their own skin.  All are stories Christ cares deeply about. 

Ever feel like your silently carrying one of those signs?

Words penned on it that someone else has spoken about you.  Words you wondered if they were true.  Spoken by another. Sometimes we speak them to ourselves.  We pen things across our minds every single day in our self talk.  How would your silent video sign(s) read today?

I will never amount to anything.
I can't do anything right.
Worthless.
Fat.
I always mess things up.
I am hated.
Failure.
I'll be stuck forever.
Lazy.
I ask dumb questions.
Moron.
I have stupid ideas.
Ugly.
Not enough.
Perfect.
Unlovable.

We all have lies dancing through our thought life.  Some we've put there.  Some others have.  Parents.  Friends.  Enemies.  Coworkers.  Family.  Strangers......  It doesn't matter who spoke it, all lies are straight from the pit.

Many of us have been guilty of shouting these lies to our own children in moments of rage or anger.  The very ones we hope to build up, not tear down.  (Ouch!  Parents-saving this one for next time.)

What if the lies tattooed on our minds would suddenly raise to the surface and be worn on our skin?  Some appearing in bold large font in highly visible places.  You know, the ones you've heard all your life, or maybe were only spoken once, but who said it to you had great significance in your life.  Others would be faded from the years, but still there.  The recent ones would be still slowly being inked across your skin the more you toy with them.  A label someone else gave you.  A label you gave yourself.  For all to read.  For all to know.  A false identity.  Thankfully, this won't happen.

Something more incredible already has.....
Truth has been spoken about you. 
Before you were even born.
A real identity.

The world is very interested in self worth.
I've worked with lots of hurting girls and learned this:

The world does not need more self worth.
The world needs more of His worth.
We need to know who He says we are.
We need to know who we are to Him.
Jesus Christ.

Because once we know that, we can take the lies of this world that have been tattooed in our minds and hearts.... the silent signs that we are holding up today, and replace them with the truth.  Anytime, anyplace.  I'm sharing my favorite Truth cards with you below.  These are the ones that have helped me replace lies in my own life...  This is how I bring the gospel, the good news, alive in my own life each day.  The more stock I place in these truths and the less credit I give to the lies, the more content and meaningful my life becomes.  They are my true identity, who I was created to be.  I took hold of all of these things when I accepted Christ, but I still have remind myself of who I am in Him every. single. day.... when I blow it as a mom or wife..... whenever doubt, fear or worry comes to visit me.... when I look in the mirror and all my imperfections seem to magnify-- I am still taking hold of them each day.

Read through them.... S L O W L Y.   Listen to the truth that has been spoken of you, dear one.  This is what Jesus has written on top of the lies of your silent sign for you today. Try a little bit of HIS worth on for size, and I think you'll find it looks good on you.  Take just one today, and repeat it to yourself over and over and over.  Take another tomorrow.  Begin to let the truth set you free.

YOU are the apple of My eye…  Psalm 17

you are FEARFULLY and WONDERFULLY MADE…  Psalm 139

you are My TREASURED POSSESION…  Deuteronomy 7

you are REDEEMED... Galations 3

you are My RIGHTEOUSNESS in Christ... 2 Corinthians 5

you are the TEMPLE of My Holy Spirit... 1 Corinthians 6

you are FREE from condemnation! Romans 8

you are MORE than a conqueror! Romans 8

you are FREE from weaknesses and diseases… Matthew 8

you are a JOINT-HEIR with My Son… Romans 8

you are a BRANCH of My TRUE VINE… John 15

you are the LIGHT of My world… Mathew 5 & Ephesians 5

you are in the palm of MY HAND… Isaiah 49

I will NEVER leave you or forsake you…Deuteronomy 31, Joshua 1, & Hebrews 13

you are the SALT of My earth... Matthew 5

you are COMPLETE in Me. Colossians 2

you are ACCEPTED in Me… Ephesians 1

you are ALIVE in Me...Romans 6

you are covered by the shadow of MY HAND… Isaiah 5

you are My AMBASSADOR... 2 Corinthians5

you are a MEMBER of My HOUSEHOLD… Galations 6

My LOVE and FAITHFULLNESS go before you… Psalm 89

I LOVE you as much as I love My Son… John 17

NOTHING can pluck you from my hand... John 10

you are DELIVERED from darkness… Romans 6 & Colossians 1

you are a NEW CREATION… 2 Corinthians 5

you are my CHILD… 1 John 3

I LOVED you before the creation of the world… John 17

in ME there is REST… Matthew 11

I know the PLANS I have for you…Jeremiah 29

I give POWER to the weak… Isaiah 40

I supply ALL your needs… Philippians 4

OVERWHELMING VICTORY is yours through My Son… Romans 8

the PEACE I give, the world cannot… John 14

My GRACE is sufficient for you… 2 Corinthians 12

My STRENGTH is made perfect in your weakness… 2 Corinthians 12

even now My Son is EXHAULTED in your body…Philippians 1

My promise preserves your LIFE…Psalm 119

let my UNFAILING LOVE be your COMFORT… Psalm 119

Selah, my friend.... Selah.

Parents, more on bringing this good news to your kids (especially after you've blown it) next time.

Uncovering the lies behind the new nursing norm....

This topic will likely surface some emotion.... it's sensitive. 

But sensitive topics are real, and sometimes really need attention.

I recently listened to several young women discussing the increasingly popular trend of nursing uncovered in public....  Great conversations were had by this group of young moms and moms-to-be.  There were those who followed Jesus, those who did not, those who nursed uncovered, those who didn't..... all equally torn and passionate about this sensitive topic.  Then it was finally said:  " I wonder what Jesus would think if He were here, and what He'd want us all to do?" 

I offered my perspective as did other experienced nursing mothers. 

Eyes were opened, scales removed, lies left behind.  A beautiful thing.

I hope that happens today.

Whether you follow Jesus or not, I believe there is at least one gem to find the in this post for you.  I hope when you find the nugget that was intended just for you, that you would take hold of it... even if it's a little sharp and stings at first. 

I believe we can follow Jesus in ALL areas of life.... even when feeding our infants.  Yes, even then.  Although Jesus never fed an infant, I believe his invitation to follow Him still applies to us then.  After all, Jesus never said:  "Come follow me... exception given to hormone imbalanced nursing mothers".

Yet, somehow many of us have bought that lie... at least once. 
Others of us are camping out there. 

Nursing uncovered in public. It is the increasingly new trend of nursing children without any covering in public places.  Often times, it is preceded by posting success photos on social networks for the whole world to see.

Recently while out to eat, two nursing mother friends were nursing uncovered in the booth next to me.... their conversation early in the meal was all about a preteen daughter posting inappropriate pictures of herself online, and the mother was completely overwhelmed about how it came to be and what she could do about it.  Following their meal and conversation, the moms debated about which nip (nursing in public) pictures to post of themselves, and on which forums/groups.

Hmmm... I wonder where that preteen daughter has learned it.....

Beneficial to the child, harmless, no consequences?   I bet you'll think differently when little Emmy's body begins to change or when little Jonny's grows up and his big boy friends find photos of mommy and him online and they go viral...

Viral in his entire teenage world anyway.

Side note, so you think you've been posting them only in private and closed groups.... try again--score a few likes from other mutual friends, and BAM..... larger-than-life you now appear on my wall too, in full postpartum glory.

I understand we have the "right" to do this as a women living in America today.  I see exactly how these trends come to be.  We all realize this.  To be honest, in our ever increasingly unhealthy hyper sexualized world,  I expect a constant increase in self centered behavior based on self-liberation.... it is the times in which we live. 

However, some of these terrible freedoms have also come at a terrible cost.  And the cost has been great....   Just look around, I bet your Facebook newsfeed has several examples of how "good" things were when we "used to"_________ .  Insert whatever common sense behavior you'd like, there is something WHOLE  and right and good about it.  We've now somehow regressed to taking third world pictures of half dressed Amazonian women in war paint holding machetes and use them as the American nursing in public meme models... pride.. power...self..... liberty.

Yet, in the quest of liberty... I see slaves.

Slaves to rebellion.... it comes at a cost too.  The need to justify behavior.  The need to vomit emotionally to everyone in hopes that one person defends their self seeking cause.  A constant itch that needs scratched.  Anger towards others.  Restlessness.

.....all in the name of what is natural... what is best for the child.... choice.... freedom.

Freedom, terrible freedom...... producing self induced slaves.

Freedom doesn't feel like that, friend.

It doesn't wear the face of anger or justification.

It feels right.... for everyone.

That said, I wish to offer a huge challenge to present and future nursing moms who have decided to follow Jesus a little deeper.  Those who have decided to give Him their all, who are ready to release to Him even the smallest area that they are doing life for themselves instead of for Him.

Topics like these are so sensitive. 

I believe largely it's because it is something God designed to be sacred and intimate, and we are so far from that.  Because we've bought the lie the enemy has fed us..... It makes perfect sense to me.  Why not tempt the mother who lays everything else down for the needs of her family with doing something to liberate herself?  Why not place blinders on to see only the moment of infant child and not growing child?  Why not wave the illusion of control during the season of learning to surrendering control a little deeper?  Self.  Anger.  Justification.  It's all vomit from the same enemy.  He's vomiting lies, and we're devouring them as a nation.... and using a third world machete woman as our mascot.

My I gently encourage you to ponder these thoughts:

While nursing uncovered, am I serving myself and my desires or serving those around me? 
Is my desire to nurse uncovered mostly selfish or selfless? 
Today, how can I die to self more so that He can be best honored in and through me? 
Am I following Jesus, or the crowd on this one?
Could my own rights and freedom have me held captive as a slave?


I have a dear friend who is nursing a child with special needs.  He does not tolerate his body being covered.... I respect this friend for searching and trying to find certain fabrics that he would tolerate so she could make small custom privacy cloths to cover herself.  In addition, she wore certain underclothing that allowed her to remain covered sans blankets.  If there is anyone I have ever known who could have justified exposing herself for the benefit of her baby, it was her.... but she chose to follow Jesus and serve those around her instead.  It is beautiful... friend, I respect you for clothing yourself in compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience.

While feeding her baby in public and keeping herself covered, she was following Jesus.  She was silently serving the sexually unhealthy around her by minimizing unhealthy urges or hurts, she was helping the post abortive, cancer surviving, or grieving women around her to be more comfortable in her own silent pain.  She was helping present and future marriages all around her community by not impressing visual images of taken women into the minds of men that cannot ever erase them, and she was showing the teenagers in the room that there is something sacred and intimate about not only the bond between husband and wife, but mother and infant child as well.  She was loving her neighbor more than herself, and taking the time to consider the interests of those around her ahead of her own. 

She was following Jesus.

Not because she was following the rules perfectly.

Not because she was better than anyone else in the room.

But because she followed Jesus into that room.

Because she cared about the condition of the hearts of those around her, just as Jesus does.

And because she knew His ways are better than her own.... rich in modesty and grace.

We live in a world that embraces the list of reasons and rights that are continually thrown in front of us justifying why we should live for ourselves.  The truth is, women, we do not know what is like to be a teenage boy with a testosterone super highway being built within us.... or what it means to fight the battlefield within the visual mind of men.  We may not be sexually unhealthy, post abortive, or live with the real scars of female cancer, or be in the midst or wake of the loss of a child.  But friends, that doesn't mean we can ignore that they make up a VERY large percent of our public community.  I believe following Jesus means we deny ourselves and follow Jesus instead of the newest self righteous trend.

Following Jesus isn't just about bringing Him glory, but it's also for our own good.

He knows the hearts of all.

He understands the pain of all.

He sees the scars of all... hidden or visible.

And He laid is life down for every last one of us.

When we follow Jesus, he's asking us to do this too.... to lay our self down for them as well.

Jesus came to teach us it is about our heart condition.... not to give us a list of rules.  A list of should's and should not's is not what we need, nor my goal with this.

My goal is to gently encourage you to examine your own heart when given the moment to serve self or others and weigh out a few thoughts...."Am I being selfless or selfish.... am I serving and loving my neighbors.... am I following Jesus or the crowd....or am I feeding the never, ever satisfied pit of pride, power, and self."  .....am I buying a lie, that is affecting others around me?

Only you know.



I think it's best you talk to God on your own this time.

This time, I'll leave you with the same question of my new friend..... 
" I wonder what Jesus would think if He were here, and what He'd want us all to do."

Talk it over with Him.